2005-05-12 - 5:40 p.m.
What I'm listening to: More than This-Roxy Music.
This is slowly becoming one of my top favourite songs...top 5 easily, along with Solisbury Hill by Peter Gabriel.
I remember having a long chat with a friend from Ottawa, about the whole 'you end up with somebody like your parent of the opposite sex (if you're straight I guess)'. I disagreed at the time, and still do to a certain extent. I don't believe in psychoanalysis as some scientific theory, but more like a set or temporally and spatially specific set of thoughts, or rather presuppositions.
With this friend, I presented the case scenario that what if you would rather not marry somebody who is like your mother. Her response was, as long as you know what specifics make you uneasy, what characteristics you can't live with. But on the other hand she said that you will probably end up with somebody like that because you know how to deal with it. Very wise words.
While out and about today, I ran into the lovely lady. We talked on the street for about half and hour, just about things, and to be honest I was suprised that I didn't get the 'I have to run' routine. When the wind kicked in and she got really cold, she asked me if I wanted to grab a coffee. Of course I do.
We talked for another two hours or so, just about things as well as a few jokes here and there. It felt good. She revealed early on that she has intimacy issues. Interesting. This was before she asked me to go for coffee. We chatted more and more, and I kept on thinking....sheesh, you're like my mother.
The introversion, the tv watching for relaxation, the intimacy issues, the mama bear instinct (you touch my kids I'll fucking kill you), the intelligence but not intellectualism, the charity work, etc. But, there are a lot of things about her that I do like, that are not in my mother's character. Interesting...
She asked me how I felt about this fantastic apartment that I'm trying to get into, what my gut feeling is, etc. I said that I'd really like to go there, but we'll see what the current tenant says. Her response was that if it's meant to be, it'll happen. Very wise words. When we parted company, I asked if she wanted to get together before she leaves for two weeks, next week. Her eyes fell to the floor and said that it would be nice if everybody got together, and that it would be nice to see everybody again.
Interesting. I think that's my cue to let go, and let cupid do his thing, if he's up to the job. A good friend once told me: 'you are an analyst by choice and by trade, but there are times when you have to kick back and let things happen, and don't think about them so much'. Again, very wise words.
