2005-05-11 - 9:25 p.m.
What I'm listening to: well needed silence.
I think I've fallen into the trap of overwork again. Most of today was spent in bibilo research and a bit of thesis writing. All in all I didn't do much else. I haven't been to the gym in ages. My membership expired, and I haven't made the time to renew it for the summer.
One of the lovely ladies works out at another gym around the corner. I had considered getting a membership there, but if I were to do it now, it would feel like stalking for some reason. Dunno, but they do have a whirlpool and sauna. Maybe I'll go and check it out tomorrow. Usually when I go work out, I prefer to do it alone-it's like 'me' time. So I'm not really in the most social mood and as such I avoid other people that I might know at the gym.
It seems that part of this thesis excersize for me is to balance, and to work in stages, as opposed to all day like today. Lesson learned. On the walk home I was trying to remind myself what I do for fun...not a good sign.
Will call the gorgeous apartment tomorrow, to see if it's a go. I really hope it is, because I really don't want to have to go through the search again. I think deep down I'm thinking the same way about this lovely lady. I don't want to let this one go, and on the same note am not really keen on playing the game at this stage. But then again, on the flip side games can be fun, so perhaps I will play along just for fun.
Overwork...oye....but hey when you're passionate about something...... Bottom line is that emotionally I'm not sure if something is starting with the lovely lady or not. I feel like I'm getting mixed signals. But then again this is a by-product of overwork, these types of imaginings. I've seen it before in others. I had promised myself to let go, and probably give her a call next week. If I get the brush off again at that point, then I'll know for sure. But, without being pushy, I don't think I'll give up just yet.
