2005-04-02 - 10:31 a.m.
What I'm listening to: I Got the Feelin'-James Brown
It feels like England outside. Around zero, cold, and drizzling.
Just came back from breakfast with my brother. He's in town for the weekend on business. It was nice to see him again, even though for a short while. I know that he really likes Schwartz's, so last night I brought him a sandwich (extra fat of course), chips, karnatzel and black cherry. He was pleased, and I was happy that he was happy. This morning we met for breakfast with one of his staff. He's a good kid. Being around him reminds me of what it's like to be 20 again, with a voracious appetite and an indiscreet watchful eye. Hormones-hello, and it being springtime doesn't help...
Admittedly, last night was rather troubling, when I saw my brother for the first time this weekend. My brother has distanced himself and his family from a lot of family activities, much to our sadness. I understand why, am somewhat but not really sympathetic. I think part of growing up is to look at yourself in the mirror and say to yourself 'my parents have done all that they can for me, now it's up to me to make it', instead of harping on 'they didn't do this for me when I was young, they didn't do that, etc'. My brother does this still, at age 38, which I do have issues with, because I think I've grown out of hat 'expecting parents to still emotionally spoon feed you' phase.
Now it's up to me to make myself into what I want to be. Back to the books.
